The size of a word has no relation to its importance in the
universe or in language.
I’m realizing that “life” consists of an immeasurable number
of things. Once you start to quantify what equals life, you realize how incredibly
magical and miraculous our existence is. From blood to emotion, tissue to
feeling, DNA to experience… you don’t realize who you are and all the
innumerable components that make you YOU, with LIFE.
In this last year I’ve opened my mind in many new ways while shutting doors to
availability. What I mean is I’ve said I want to know more, more about me,
about the universe, and LIFE. Then I’ve said I’m going to stop giving so much
of my time, space, willingness, skills, to others. Whatever IT is, I’ve given
IT less. I’ve learned to say no and accept that the reaction others have to my
unavailability is theirs to decide. They can be upset I’m not “there” for them,
or they can accept I’m living my life. They are welcome to do so too.
I realized I literally can’t go in all directions because I
don’t have limitless energy for everyone. Good for those who do. I’m putting
myself first. Feeling whatever I want, whatever comes up, and allowing myself
to LIVE. Breathing, laughing, crying, learning, loving, breaking, making, and
doing anything I feel I should. This
isn’t being reckless either, I don’t mean I’m “rebelling” as such. I’m not
lashing out and going crazy. I’m going inward and saying it’s important for
wholeness and sanity.
Some people don’t like their own company. They don’t enjoy silence or concentration, they feel incomplete alone. I’m not that person. I encourage everyone to not be that person. Loving who you are and enjoying yourself is one of the most important things I can think of, and seeing your LIFE as a precious gem that needs to be treated right is what we all should do.
Some people don’t like their own company. They don’t enjoy silence or concentration, they feel incomplete alone. I’m not that person. I encourage everyone to not be that person. Loving who you are and enjoying yourself is one of the most important things I can think of, and seeing your LIFE as a precious gem that needs to be treated right is what we all should do.
The knock-on effect of that, would be nobody taking energy.
Each of us would have enough, we would be content with ourselves, and sense our
importance and value. Then all interaction would come from a place of inner
fulfillment, which would be more like sharing than giving or taking.
Back to wholeness. I think it’s odd how unnatural so many of
us find it to be ourselves. For almost all my life I didn’t know who I was, and
it wasn’t ok to just be me, having an opinion, doing what I want, and saying NO
when I felt like saying no. Getting to know myself means getting to a place of
being able to say no. Now I’m living, feeling, thinking, allowing, and relaxing
into being me… Into the thing taking up residence in this complicated piece of
flesh, blood, bone, cell, and energy I call ME.
So, LIFE is a giant complicated word, more than I can define.
The more I learn, the smaller my mind becomes in this maze of existence that so
quickly falls out of my mouth as a four letter word: “LIFE”.
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