August Awareness

August has been a beautiful month for me. I don’t want to say good bye to the warm weather, and August normally represents that letting go of beautiful warmth. We have had some funky weather all summer, so I will continue to hope it stays funky, and maybe the warmth lasts longer than it should. Heck, I think I have seen the sun set in the north a few times this summer, so maybe anything is possible with the weather.

It’s been a beautiful month not just because of weather, but because of people. I seem to have so many loving and giving people in my life, that I am receiving smiles and love in many directions. In addition to being extremely busy with fun projects, and a social life squeezed into every available hour. Which is why I’ve found it so difficult to get my first blog post up this month.

 I’ve had a few things fall together in my mind the last couple weeks, and overall I feel great.

A couple nights ago I went with a Dearheart to a really cool event called a Sound Bath & Sonic Massage. It was in a Krishna temple, where the floor was covered with people on yoga mats and blankets. I had never been to one, so didn’t know what to expect, and afterward I felt like everything in the world was where it should be.

There were no mantras, there were no meditations per se, it was just sound, lovely sound made by two individuals with crystal singing bowls, Himalayan metal bowls, drums, flutes, rattles, gongs, tingsha chimes, and a little singing. They say they are “producing sounds which invoke a deep relaxation, naturally assist in meditation, stress reduction and holistic healing.” This was not a description I saw before the event, only after, and I was like –“Ah, ya, I totally felt that.”

I both laid and sat on my soft blanket during the ‘sound bath’, and afterward some thoughts came to me, so I grabbed my notebook and wrote:

The life I want can be the life I have. If I accept I’m in control, I invite, I expel, I love, I allow, I decide, I live… my life. We spend so much time wishing for the beautiful to arrive, the comfort to come, and for the “everything is ok” dream. We think it’s unattainable. The older we get the more we seem to accept there is no green grass, not on this side or the other. I had nearly accepted that lack of green, well… I in fact had, but something happened and I started to notice the green grass is growing under my feet, and it has everything to do with my willingness to look down and look around. In doing that, I’m seeing beauty everywhere. It’s life. It’s MY LIFE. And I’m seeing it’s the life I want. I’m making and living the life I want to have.

I need to own my life, take possession, and be the one dictating what I do, how I feel, and what ground my feet step on. I have to be self-full. I have to own me, take care of me, shut doors to some people, and pay attention to energy to and from myself. Consider what I’m willing to have in my life, and what I’m insisting leaves.

What if there is no “doing what you are meant to do”? What if you’re just supposed to follow your heart and act on what you feel? No path is already paved with you forced to find it. What if you pave your own using dreams, desires, loves, joys, interests and the things that make you happy? That’s the path that will bring satisfaction and lead to what we call fulfillment. There might not be any “meant to”, just “want to”.

Happy August. ;)

(Photo is one I took down at "the farmers path". My favorite place)